Ghosts of Joe Slovo

1) Politics. This bores a lot of people so I try not to talk much about it here.

2) Soccer - specifically MLS soccer. This defines me as a complete soccer nerd, but I swear I am an ametuer at this because while I love the game, I find I'm foggier than I should be about tactics. Maybe completely foggy actually. Somehow this doesn't stop me from trying to make predictions, however.

3) Being married. It's the next step. How I feel about steps changes as I change. And it blends into the next change pretty seamlessly most of the time. But one day you are all about the braeburn apple and then you check in again on fruit and you are all about navel oranges. Sometimes for me a cultural atrifact with significance in a previous decade of my life puts me in check-in phase. The best artifact for me has been the movie, Dazed and Confused. No linking. Google is your friend.

I have seen that moive about 30 times in my life, but it could be more. It's deep enough in my brain that its hanging out with lizards. Certain sequences can trigger specific emotions, but I find the emotions change timbre and shade, and give me a mirror to look at myself. How I feel about a scene tells me a lot about how I'm doing right now. 

I don't know what Dazed and Confused would tell me lately and not because it can't still teach and I can't still learn; but because some tools get worn with use. And I'm wondering if I used it down, wore it down, dullened it, and it needs to sharpen with ageing. Then I'll check in with it again.

In the meantime I'm going to use this married thing to see if there aren't some new things that I can build with Tyche I can use to check-in on later. We got lots of wedding photos...


I wonder wonder if that if, during the ageing process, Ben Affleck's acting continues as it has since he stopped improving after Chasing Amy, I will still think his best performance ever was in Dazed and Confused? Because it's the one role where he is totally consumed with the emotion he's trying to act out.

Ben Affleck does "Anger Man", Ben Affleck is Anger Man.

And now, to dinner.



Mmmmm. Dinner.